The Pink Agendist

by E.B. de Mas, reachable at: pink.agendist@yahoo.com

Month: June, 2012

Thank you. The problem is they’re humans with very short lifespans.

“(S)He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever, I was wrong.”

Thank you for all the messages and kindness, I’d respond individually, but I just don’t feel able to right now.

Getting through the night was difficult, I’d only slept three hours the night before, but still I couldn’t fall asleep. I considered a Valium, but I’d had too much to drink during the afternoon and evening and the mix results in a dreadful hangover. The problem is/was we were entirely co-dependant. We’d been together for the past eight years and three months. We never spent a night apart, in fact, we were never apart for more than 4 hours. Mike and I set that as the maximum limit the dogs should be alone, and we make sure that even those cases are rare. My love affair with Irish Wolfhounds began around 12 years ago, when I met Mike’s dog, Billie. Irish wolfhounds are usually aloof and reserved, Billie was especially aloof and reserved, she really didn’t like outsiders. When people visited Mike, she’d prefer to go outside and observe from a distance. But this is us the day we met. Mike said the coat must have made her think she and I looked alike.

I’d never been near an animal that was so human, so large, so opinionated. They have unusual habits and abilities, they like to sit on chairs, as you see on the right (notice how the hind legs are suspended.) They know they’re big and powerful and the general attitude is: “I’m big enough to do what I want, so don’t push me”. Each one is different but fantastically human. With a clever little move of the face they can open doors as their faces are at the height of the average door handle. They believe in equal rights: You sit on the sofa, I sit on the sofa. You have a large bed, I want a large bed, or I’ll sleep on yours! Unfortunately, Irish wolfhounds often end up in shelters because people think the idea of them is wonderful (which it is), but  sharing space with such a large animal requires knowledge, patience and a lot of care. They can reach the kitchen counter, they can take the food off of your plate, and playfully they’ll try both. We have a wonderful story of Billie once tiptoeing away from the terrace with an entire roast chicken in her mouth in the short time it took for people to get from the outdoor seating area to the table.

We’ve had three wolfhounds, Billie, Blue and finally Tara, who was the result of an accident. A professional breeder had a female that escaped whilst on heat and consummated the act with her brother. They didn’t want to sell the inbred puppies, so they gave them away. Billie had cancer and died at the age of eight, so Blue was on her own, hence we decided to take Tara. We found her incredibly amusing as a newborn. She walked over all of her siblings and came to us. Even as puppies, they’re quite big. At 8 weeks, we brought her home. She promptly found my lap and sat there during the 3 hour drive home. You probably can’t tell my keyboard is wet from tears as I wipe my face and type. The first night she was here she repeatedly climbed on the bed. Mike kept putting her back on the floor, but when I woke up her head was on my pillow, next to mine.

The years that followed were funny, intense, at the age of one she became our generic Birthday card. She destroyed the legs of my Biedermeier arm-chairs, she ate the corners of two Persian rugs. She destroyed my alarm clock and a mobile phone. I smoked and she would take cigarettes from my pack and chew them. If I got up, she sat at my place on the sofa. If I went to the bathroom at night, she got into my place in bed. If I put my wine glass on the floor, she drank from it. Mike often joked that I was a terrible example which she followed to the letter.  The pain of her absence is physical as well as emotional. She was always in my eye-line, if not blocking my path. She stood behind me when I was cooking, hoping I’d look away for a moment and she could steal something. She was my child, my friend, my companion. She was such a tremendous part of my own identity, today I feel as if missing a limb. And that’s where the incredible humanity of wolfhounds is so incredibly touching and so fantastically painful- they live 6 to eight years. Years like nothing anyone who hasn’t had one could possibly imagine, and I say that as someone who has and has had all kinds of dogs.

Words Are Not Wanted Now

“The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.”

After losing Jimmy a few weeks ago, This was quite the blow. It’s a risk every Irish Wolfhound owner knows he’s taking, they tend to live short lives. My Tara, my wonderful Tara had a pulmonary embolism early this morning. Mike woke me and we went to the vet. He gave her blood thinners she seemed to improve, but two hours ago she stopped breathing. Some days I’m not sure how much more living I can take.

Maybe a little.

People keep telling me I look like him, so I did a split screen to compare.

There’s a faint resemblance, but nothing more. He had much nicer eyes.

Changing the soundtrack. The weekend menu.

Melancholia is indulgence. Time to put it away. Let’s go for Gino Paoli singing Sapore di Sale circa 1954. Italian music of that period was fantastic. Close your eyes and imagine yourself walking in Anacapri. A cute Italian boy makes overtures to you, but you’re sixteen and you just panic and run away. Everything tastes of the sea.

We had Greek lamb last night. The Greeks do lamb wonderfully. I’m a bit ashamed of the treatment they’re receiving from the rest of Europe.

We had neck of lamb fillet done in the oven.

For 2 people you need:

1 neck fillet

1 large lemon

3 garlic cloves

1 sprig of mint

Trim excess fat, lay 2 sheets of aluminium foil onto each other (big enough to entirely envelop the meat)

Peel then slice the garlic lengthways, make slits into the meat and insert garlic

Lay meat on foil and turn up the edges a bit

Zest the lemon and reserve zest for later (pour some olive oil on it so it doesn’t dry out)

Juice the lemon and pour juice over meat

Season with salt/pepper to taste

Put the mint on top

Close foil envelope tightly

Put it in the oven for 3 hours at 150º C,

When done pour lemon zest & olive oil on meat, serve with Greek salad

This evening we’re having trout with almonds. Tomorrow a wonderful Thai steak with something called a Crying Tiger sauce. Recipes will follow.

The Cycle That Is Life

A couple of years ago we gave a set of books to charity. Some of the inscriptions were very touching. Not individually, but as the outline to a story. A picture of the passing of time, of ageing, of moving in different directions. The background is a book. Dick Francis‘ first in his successful The Racing Game series. It was made into a television show. Mike was Sid Halley. If you’ve never heard of Dick Francis, he was a famous jockey turn crime writer. He and Mike were both Welsh and friends. Both times Mike had lunch with the Queen Mother, it was at the invitation of Dick & Mary. The Queen told Mike no smoking was allowed at the table, he asked her what she did when Princess Margaret was around. She didn’t reply. Sometimes I wonder who’s going to be part of my life in five, 10, 20 years. Will I be alive in 30? Where will I live? How will I live?

He was good casting for a  detective

But as with everything in life, relationships, friendships, people move on.

I’m listening to Leonard Cohen. It’s cloudy. The mood is set.

A Picture for Colin of Bessie (on a Louis XVIth Canapé)

This is Bessie, you haven’t seen her before because she’s quite shy.

Baroque enough for you?

Bullied bus monitor thankful for support, pleas for threats to stop | The Lookout – Yahoo! News

All bullied bus monitor Karen Klein wanted was an apology. Now she’s getting that … and then some.

Police say the four boys who tormented the 68-year-old on a school bus in upstate New York earlier this week have taken responsibility for their actions. They are also saying they’re sorry.

An online campaign to fund a vacation for Klein had grown to nearly $500,000 by Friday morning, far surpassing the initial $5,000 goal. Max Sidorov, the Toronto man who started the fund two days ago, said he did so partly because he was bullied himself as a child.

Bullied bus monitor thankful for support, pleas for threats to stop | The Lookout – Yahoo! News.

Where have I been? I hate technology. Maison Jansen. Higher stats- Who are these people? There was a book, then there wasn’t a book.

We sent the computer in to be re-formatted last Friday. The man took longer than expected. Windows 7 is very nice, except my canon camera doesn’t work with it, neither does my photo editing program etc… etc… The technology market is a scam. They force you to buy new stuff every few years by knowingly ceasing support for older products. The shame is my digital camera works perfectly and will now be retired; And I’ll have to learn the ins and outs of a whole new imaging program- one is not amused.

The few days without the computer were actually quite refreshing. It was the first time I’d spent more than 48 hours without the internet in the past 12 years. I read, I watched Judge Judy, I sat  on the lawn and played with the dogs. It was good because we had to get the house ready for a visit. Not a visit from people interested in buying the villa but from their architect, Mr. Rojas. They think we don’t have enough bedrooms. In my head I answered “What are you planning to have here, a polygamist compound?”- but I held my tongue. I ended up working myself into a frenzy before the visit, it’s something I’ve done since childhood. My grandfather even made up a little story when I was around ten in the hope that if I understood what I was doing I’d stop it. It went something like this:

It’s the Easter holidays and a man’s driving his Jaguar in the countryside. He sees a sign that says nearest town: 10 miles and soon afterwards he has a flat tire. He looks in his trunk and realizes his spare tire is also flat. He’s angry, but mainly at himself. He decides to walk to the nearest town, tire in hand. He’s reasonably calm at first but something  starts building in his mind: It’s a Sunday, the guy’s going to charge me extra to fix this on a Sunday, around $50. In fact, it’s Easter Sunday, he’s going to charge me a fortune, $100. Time lapse. When he sees it’s a Jaguar tire he’s going to think I’m rich, he’s going to charge me $150. Time lapse. By the time the man arrives in the town and finds the garage, he’s furious. Before the mechanic has a chance to speak he’s already screaming: You THIEF! $550 to fix a flat tire! You THIEF!!! How dare you! Do you think I’m an idiot?

…And in that spirit I was ready for the visit. Some self-important architect is going to come here and say my house doesn’t have enough bedrooms, ridiculous! He’s going to criticize everything… He’s going to say… He’s going to do… This is probably a ruse to use against us in the negotiations… I’ll slap him. I will you know!

The visit was nothing of the kind. The man couldn’t have been more charming and more complimentary- and I felt like quite the fool. We had wine and discussed classical painters. I showed him my Maison Jansen coffee table that arrived this week. I’ve been looking for one that I liked and didn’t cost a fortune for years. I considered this one, but  I wanted an all bronze/brass version. Then there was this one, that I love, but it was just too small… Anyway, I finally have what I want and if Mike is kind enough he’ll take some pictures for me to put up.

My stats keep climbing steadily. Not to huge proportions, although I have no idea what’s big and what’s small in blogworld. Every couple of weeks I get a new busiest day thingy. It usually coincides with a day when I don’t write at all. This week the number is 875.

I sometimes wonder who these people are and if they really having nothing better to do. Mike tells me that I find my life uninteresting because I’ve always been me…

On my prolonged disconnection from the internet I’ve been reconsidering the (a) book. Two years ago I finished writing one, got an agent, lined up a publisher, but then somebody said it was brilliant. It wasn’t brilliant. I was surprised, afraid, then slightly offended, then I pulled the plug. I think that I might perhaps use the good parts and build a new story around them. It started like this:

I was born against my will on March 23, 1978, Maundy Thursday. I fought the Caesarean section, I fought the doctor and I fought the forceps; Three hours later I had lost my first battle against the world. In protest I screamed. I screamed so loud it made the nurses shudder. 

Everything here is mine. Mine, I say!

This chair is mine. I like the feel of the linen slip-cover.

But in the study I prefer the Art-Deco armchair, it’s also mine.

Give me that toy! It’s mine!

And stop staring at me!

xoxo,

Rudy

A few things you’ll see in issue two of JABR « justabitradical

A few things you’ll see in issue two of JABR  justabitradical.

Happy Hour for One in the Pergola. Dolce Far Niente.

It’s hot today. Diana Krall, olives, cheese, chilled Rioja and cigarettes- keep me entertained. The house is pretty from here.

Catholic Church backs ‘Kill the Gays’ bill | 76 CRIMES

In reversal, Catholic Church backs ‘Kill the Gays’ bill | 76 CRIMES.

Spanish Financial Crisis? What in the world are they talking about?

They can’t possibly be referring to this place…

or this place?

oops, those are both the same place, but still, it’s Spain.

The Emperor Has All the Clothes. Spain’s 1% Problem.

Hurrah!!! A 100 billion bail-out for Spanish financial institutions (not for the Spanish government, not for the Spanish people.) I suppose I should be celebrating. This means that my neighbours and I, residents of Sotogrande, Spain’s most exclusive and expensive resort, will not be forced to look at outdated Bentleys and Mercedes’ this summer.

Maybe the president of one of these banks, the one that has his house painted in the most hideous shade of green known to man, will (in the knowledge he’ll still be getting an obscene bonus this year) regale the rest of us with a new paint job in a less offensive colour.

That other family, the one that actually owns most shares in one of these banks- well, I think they should really consider a new chandelier for their dining room. The one they have now is quite pedestrian. My suggestion is they find out who bought the Givenchy Royal Hanover chandelier for $9,182,187 and offer them double that. That would cause such a buzz.

So let’s review what happened and continues to happen today:

Many years ago lots of rich people bought a lot of land where there were previously small and mostly undeveloped village communities. Estates were built, infra-structure was improved and the locals were either priced out of the market or had to take on onerous mortgages to remain in the areas where they were born. One such person was Paco, a gardener who is the same age as myself, although we live on different sides of the Sotogrande gates. He was born around here. When he decided to move in with his girlfriend in his 20′s and leave his parents home he had two options: To take on exorbitant rental prices and lease an apartment (owned by me or my neighbours) or buy a property (built by me or my neighbours) and take on an onerous mortgage (given by a financial institution where my neighbours and I probably own shares.) Of course there was a third option, he could have left. Found a little dusty village and moved there, but Paco wanted to stay where he grew up, near his friends and family. Paco decided to buy an overpriced home, he had to work two jobs to keep up with the payments and his wife also had to work. This was a very interesting trickle down social model, almost feudal and very convenient for the people who own everything. It was also pretty good for the friends of the people who own everything, the bankers. But then the economy slowed down and people like Paco lost their 2nd or 3rd jobs- and might now lose their homes. The 1%, governments and bankers looked at the situation and thought (respectively): What about us? We’re the real victims! How can we possibly live without our bonus’? 

The solution? The solution was obvious! It’s to assist the people who’ve made all the money on speculation and lending. Certainly not the ones at the bottom. I mean they’re used to struggling, aren’t they? Banks and investors made a killing on real-estate. Hey, I’m one of them, I know what I’m talking about. Now we’re gearing up to make a second killing because now the banks have enough money to repossess homes from struggling homeowners and then hold on to the properties until the market improves! To top it all off, repossession doesn’t get borrowers off the hook for the loan, after they’re on the streets, and the home is sold cheaply at auction (to investors) people like Paco will still owe the difference to the bank!

So it goes something like this:

A) Paco buys an apartment for the inflated price of 150k (it only cost investors 70k to build)

B) Paco pays on it for years

C) Paco loses his 2nd job and cannot continue paying

D) The bank repossesses Paco’s apartment and it goes to auction

E) The market is slow so it sells at auction for 90k, an investor buys it back at a huge discount after having made a fortune on the first sale.

F) Paco is homeless, but the bank says he owes them the difference on his loan: 60k. Paco also owes administrative fees of around 6% for the repossession, so a grand total of 63,600 euros

It’s genius, obscene and disgusting, but genius. And we have our politicians to thank for it.

I don’t wanna talk about it, how it broke my heart.

I’m sorry I haven’t really been answering anyone’s comments or emails lately. James Dean is gone. In the end he came to me and to Mike. We held him. I don’t want to talk about it. Life can be excruciatingly sad at times- But…

We have decided we don’t have time to be sad, instead we must be useful. Enter the magnificent Inge. She was the lawyer on J.D.’s panel of supporters. She’s a one woman dog advocacy group. She funds a private kennel for dogs that shelters can’t handle and tried to catch J.D. (and fed him) during all the years when we were also trying to catch him. She suggested we take on Rudy (for Rudolf Nureyev.) He’s a young Bodeguero that was mistreated. He had a broken leg and someone threw him over a wall into a shelter in La Linea. They couldn’t afford his care so Inge jumped in and took custody. We went to meet him at Inge’s kennel and brought him home. He may need further surgery in the future, but we’ve got a great vet that’s a great surgeon, so we’re not worried.

He’s here as the result of J.D.’s life, that somewhat blunts the sadness. Here’s Rudy on the right. To the left it’s Morgan our Breton Spaniel who took an immediate liking to Rudy. The jeans and the hand are me…

The James Dean Roller Coaster. The J.D. Panel of Experts. The J.D. Diet.

Nobody said it was going to be easy… He’s got every illness known to dogs. Heart-worm (filaria), leishmaniasis, kidney & liver issues- everything. He does however have a panel of friends which include a vet, a pediatrician, a lawyer and two business owners. They’ve kindly contributed around 500 euros to Jimmy’s care, which was exceedingly generous.

The past few days have been touch and go, he’s been refusing to eat. We took him to the vet this morning, he got vitamin shots and pain killers and we’re hopeful he’ll eat this evening. The roller coaster of emotions has been utterly unpleasant. It became apparent to me that people have been preparing me for the possibility that J.D. might not make it. This morning as we drove to the vet he kept peaking out at me from his cardboard box. It was unnerving. I had readied myself for the moment when the vet would say it was more humane to put him down. When instead the vet suggested the vitamin shots and a different course of treatment I could barely breathe. I removed myself to the privacy of the bathroom and cried a little.

I’ve spent the past few hours calling every expert that would take my calls the world over. I’ve ordered milk thistle and aloe vera juice on their advice. Dietary recommendations were many… We got him fresh sardines. I’m making chicken soup. We bought cow liver. We bought duck foie gras & serrano ham. One of those things will surely tempt him.

The vet says that if we can get him to eat, he has a chance of survival. He now lets Mike touch him, but with me it’s a different story. We do a version of Catherine Tate’s Scared Woman sketch. I touch him, he jumps, then I jump- so I’m giving him a break from me touching him for now, it’s too stressful for both of us.

In other news today is Karen’s summer party, it kind of opens the season. We’re not going because I don’t like attending parties (any more) where there are more than 4 or 5 people. It’s a waste of effort. I did tell her that after everyone left, she could call us and we’d come by so she can tell us how it went. I’m sure it’ll be great (as always). This year an Australian chef is doing the food. He spends spring and summer here on the coast and the rest of the year in Gstaad.

Now I’m going to check on James Dean…

Bring Timmy Home

Reblogged from Sometimespace:

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This from: Bring Timmy Home

Timmy Maccoll a serving British Sailor and devoted family man, was out in Dubai on Sat 26th May 2012. He was put into a taxi by friends at 0200 sun morning and they paid the taxi up front and asked the driver to take him back to the ship. This was the last that anyone has seen of him.

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Little Airplanes Are Death Traps.

As most people know, I don’t really have any contact with my family, which is wonderful. But there were (surprisingly) a few people I quite liked. One of them was my cousin Lucila (the blonde below.)

She was one of the most stylish people I’ve ever known. She went through four (or five?) husbands and she was loads of fun. Lucila and her husband Roger bought a little airplane. If there’s anything I know about little airplanes it’s that they often crash. Lucila and 8 family members + staff died in May, three years ago. I’m never going to buy a little airplane.

Live Writer Post from Safe Mode. More 90’s Versace. More bad mirror pictures. Chimichurri.

I’m writing from Windows SAFE MODE. In case you’ve been wondering where I was or if I decided to abandon you for better things… I have not. Mike downloaded something three days ago and the computer has gone haywire. So here I am in safe mode, still running programs that were named by people who evidently love sci-fi. Everything is a killer or a defender or some such.

On Tuesday we went to an Argentine Grill that first opened in the 70′s. The decor is quite brown. The chairs are frightfully upright and uncomfortable, but the meat is excellent. They have an excellent chimichurri sauce.

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Chimichurri goes very well on any grilled meat. I’ve played with the recipe and came up with this:

½ cup olive oil
½ cup red wine vinegar
1 bay leaf
1 onion, finely chopped
2 cloves of garlic, crushed
3 tbsp chopped parsley
1 tsp ground paprika
1 tbsp dried oregano
1 tbsp paprika
¼ tsp of salt
¼ tsp pepper

Mix well and let sit for at least a day. Then you can keep it for a few weeks in the refrigerator.

I dug through my closet to find something to wear that would annoy the local bourgeoisie.

I came up with more 90′s Versace.

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Very sparkly Jeans Couture. When light hits them, I turn into a disco ball.

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That’s me!!!

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Ever since the police (outrageously) accused me of driving whilst intoxicated last year, everyone is afraid of getting caught and sentenced to community service at the Red Cross- so we reserve our heavy drinking for when we’re within the safety of the Sotogrande gates. We left the restaurant and went to Karen’s house. She has a gorgeous antique door from a Finca.

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I made fun of Angie’s rear-end

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So she tried to set fire to the house

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But it was a lovely evening anyway!

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Useless fact of the day: All of my veins are visible to the naked eye.

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A computer virus has silenced me.

But soon I’ll be back!

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